LYRICS 1. DISTANT PARENTS Sweetness was there but the breeze of love though felt did not stop my street from becoming crowded Everything will be gone The Earth and warm life There will be a time when the sun will no longer be ablaze But you will disappear much sooner And I will no longer feel that I’m loved forever Both of you should have met the parents who lived inside of me So we could all be together Voices rising out of silence Banging loudly on the gates of resistance I will never be able to say Always in a dream What time is it today? Reality makes me feel sorry I've been wired improperly My sorrow is there for no one to see Everything is gone For no other reason Than ill disconnection Mind of a schizophrenic My heart is in a panic Mind of a schizophrenic My eyes are in tears And my heart is in a panic Strange voices rising out of silence Banging loudly on the gates of resistance --------------- 2. TWENTIETH CENTURY DREAM I’ve made my peace So you think that makes sense I did not make peace Just sitting on a meaningless afternoon petting my cat When I could have Immaturity was too strong Just as the universe is made wrong I did not make peace Sitting on the couch On some 1995 afternoon petting my love My cat who doesn’t understand but who responds So I was a part of everything Immaturity was too strong So I was a part The universe is made wrong --------------- 3. SHE WAIVED AT ME … I WAS TOO SHY TO RESPOND I can’t say goodbye because I am afraid to say hello You cannot be so happy in this world You cannot appear so happy as you waive at me Golden girl You know the universe is expanding Each second that passes on this street Moves us a bit closer to the ghosts I just want to go home and hold my cat near my heart, I don’t know if you know but I suffer from anxiety It is eerie Golden girl To see you so happy But still I love your joy Mine is unwarranted and I don’t want to be perceived as dim-witted So I leave it in my room below the light bulb Idle smiles have no place in the valley of life But I love your joy It is eerie Golden girl To see you so happy To see you waive at me To see you smile and waive at me --------------- 4. CRUELTY Sadistic And I was not ready to understand Ready to understand The nightmarish violence of this stand Sadistic Like these souls were made of bricks And I was not ready to understand Not ready to understand What was projected was so piercing and grand Sadistic I was not made of plastic This contempt and lack of love hurt like an ice pick Why is everyone laughing at me? I am so shy My mother said Maybe their horns will recede one day And wings will grow On some of them Sadistic And I was not made of plastic This contempt and lack of love hurt like an ice pick And they were many Many dull little dolls Using their cruelty to mock me and my profound sensitivity Many dull little dolls All coming from the angry girly factory --------------- 5. MY SPIRIT ABOVE THE NIGHTLIFE Friends I never knew I had disappeared Friends I never knew I had disappeared My mind is hypnotized by the yellow street lights Existence and life Are they for me? I guess this is a plea Each passing car gleams with divinity I hate the fact that I hate my benevolence I eagerly look out my window And I hope to see the police or a girl Please put on a show I don't know about tenderness and love I sense the thunderstorms hidden behind personal relations Ripping my dreams and my limited condition These dreams hurt, mother But with my binoculars I am an efficient night watcher So all the neighbourhood women will be captured by my voyeuristic endeavours Love and life Love and death I am just a repressed Woody Allen With an eternal burden But I am still as repressed as someone can be Mother don't you think it would be better if someone wanted to meet me? I guess this is a plea Each passing car gleams with divinity Love and life Love and death Love and life Love and death --------------- 6. SWEET PRETTY ART TEACHER I broke my pen and I felt so little Red came off my brush And as I gazed at the blue sky and green trees I felt erased Sweet pretty art teacher Self-esteem destroyer Sweet pretty art teacher Always praising beauty and superficiality But I was kind of ugly So I pictured her as a Nazi If you could have seen my inner scenery You would have seen ravenous cats eating at your beauty I know the world is in her image But sometimes I still cry in rage Even though I occasionally like what I write on my page If you could have seen my inner scenery You would have seen ravenous cats eating at your beauty I know the world is in her image But sometimes I still cry in rage Even though I occasionally like what I write on my page --------------- 7. THE TURTLE Nature loves her She wants to keep her forever A part time life in her shell A serene blank mind No agony of nostalgia Nature loves her She will be there for a long, long, long time Put your hands on her Feed her some vegetables A serene blank mind No agony of nostalgia I wish the people I love had their blood flowing for as long as the turtle I wish peace would last as long as the turtle And youth also And summer also If I loved myself I would like to be a turtle I like to be in a shell I like to be in a shell --------------- 8. A THEATRE ON FIRE Looking at life on the screen Ready to enjoy our imagination Ready to dive into a state of dreamy fascination Your tears will put off the flames It's too late now to worry about the blames So it is so sad Because you were never bad So it is so sad Because this disintegration of emotions made us glad And this apocalypse is all we have ever had I admire your image Against the pale blue and red colours Flames and stars That shine only for heart broken audiences Flames and stars That shine for everybody I find your image inspiring like Christ who died of love Against the blue and red colours In the streets around us cats are gathering to look at the fires --------------- 9. FALLING OUT OF BED IN FRONT OF NEW FRIENDS So much shyness and need for drama Dramatic love and dramatic romance Dramatic situations Embrace me on top of a skyscraper Fake blood and lights Ooh phoney drama Dramatic situations I think somehow all of us need attention There are bizarre clouds of tenderness A strange affection that brings you back to yourself and your strange smile The smile is strange But the love is real The smile is strange But the love is real Police helicopters buzzing around Noisy indecency They are paid to care Police helicopters flying around, flying all around In my heart I feel satisfied that finally I have new friends and they love me It is so corny that these are the things I would only tell myself when I am tucked up in bed And ready to sleep --------------- 10. REGINALD’S KISS This night is fuzzy and warm Like my emotions But yet I am so calm Staggering in the parking lot of the screening room While they're showing an old movie The kind that are naive and full of beauty Hi, police lady How kind of you policewoman Let me hold your hand You're my first you know I am so young and I drank tonight This is not a prank, you know I see your angry face but still I want you so You can pepper spray me Police lady I am protected by my romance glasses And I love you Why these handcuffs? Police lady I thought you loved me I was under the impression that you had affection for me It feels like we are alone in this city Blow a kiss in the air if you wish The sirens are as red as my wandering and nervous heart The sirens are as red as my wandering and unsure heart --------------- 11. BLOODY BEACH AND DANCING GIRLS Sitting at your desk writing Writing all those things you dislike about others and your own soul Smearing the ink, the blood in the beach water These shallow angels would never die for you under this summer sky It was so long ago when time seemed as potent as a sea tide There's a beautiful sunset outside Bathing your former school and your made-up ghostly lovers Who are dancing their youth away in far away nightclubs and oblivious So oblivious to the fact that they were burning stars in the eyes and heart of an ocean of affection and frustrations Beautiful sunset outside It’s laughable when your value only comes from the inside These shallow angels would never die for you under this summer sky In distant cities the young and beautiful and interesting , talking and laughing, neon lit At dusk stray cats came asking for food as you laid down alone in the flowers Deep down there is still blood in the beach water These shallow angels would never die for you under this summer sky You laugh about many things but not love After all you were born warm After all you were born warm You laugh about many things but not love --------------- 12. A SONG ABOUT SOMETHING I see it in everyone I see it in no one You could make it so small The galaxies and all God of naivety God of childhood distress God of immature distress You may have saved Pascal from madness Everything is made of questions And subjective communications After all we live in a world of personalization I would like to set my cynical towers on fire But I will always wonder what is in the hearts of others God is love so let it be A compassion that many will never see God is love so let it be All lyrics Copyright © 2007 Jerome Lebel http://www.jeromelebelmusic.com